I’m SorryJune 12, 2020
Where do we go from here?
I rarely know what I’m going to post in a day. Always a bit of a journal of a journey, but it’s been connected on a heart level for far too long for me to just “post away as normal” as if everything didn’t just shift.
So I need to start here.
While I will be announcing some action steps and changes to my platform and business in the coming days, I can’t start there.
I have to start here.
I have to acknowledge my shortcomings,
I can’t say that I haven’t known many of the things that have come to light. Even if it felt shocking, none of this is new news.
Haven’t we always known?
I just continued like it was out of my hands.
Out of my control.
Not something I was involved in.
It’s time I do my part.
Acknowledging and using the privilege I benefit from DAILY.
Often feeling so wrapped up by my own life, fragility, feelings, body or past trauma, I had simply bubbled myself into my own experiences.
And now, that bubble has burst.
I took a bias test, sure I would pass.
Believing I was not someone who carried bias for race.
And I failed.
Slightly, but a fail is a fail.
I’m sorry for the things I have known
and not worked to change.
I’m sorry for how much focus I gave myself when I should have been asking questions, looking beyond myself and learning.
I’m sorry that it’s taken me 12 years with a platform to finally wake up to using it for much more.
I’m sorry for keeping my mouth shut, when I should have been using it.
It starts here.